I am lost today, lost in the light of the dark silence. Shaken to shreds, confusion that belittles any form reason. I don\’t know why, but sometimes I feel its only because I am just that. Human. Like we all are, some strong, some weak. I feel weak, very weak today.
Sometimes, you do painful things to others and to yourself, to get a point through. Others move on, but you are left contemplating the logic behind the action. It was no plan, just things went a bit in the way they were least expected to.
I am angry today, I have been this way since morning. Over myself. Maybe its just a case of accumulated self accountability. There are somethings I am responsible for, and quite frankly, I don\’t think I have done a great job at those tasks.
Maybe I am fighting control, excessive control. Maybe I want to break free of a state of possible emotional backlash and have sealed my external emotions to do just that. Its only my insides that have rebelled against me now.
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3 responses to “Lost”
Haha techie. Don’t worry, the peace process is under way. Life’s not too bad, but I must say I have always seen you so under control that it seems impossible to imagine the weakling in you. Lol.
Hope U feel better soon. I know…a pretty shallow thing to say here…but don’t really know what else to say to make U feel better. This post is just tooo deep,…don’t have the words…just…don’t be this hard on yourself. Take care.
“Sometimes, you do painful things to others and to yourself, to get a point through. Others move on, but you are left contemplating the logic behind the action. It was no plan, just things went a bit in the way they were least expected to.”
..story of my life!
hope u get ur stuff sorted out….any luck with the gaddi?