Lost
I am lost today, lost in the light of the dark silence. Shaken to shreds, confusion that belittles any form reason. I don’t know why, but sometimes I feel its only because I am just that. Human. Like we all are, some strong, some weak. I feel weak, very weak today.
Sometimes, you do painful things to others and to yourself, to get a point through. Others move on, but you are left contemplating the logic behind the action. It was no plan, just things went a bit in the way they were least expected to.
I am angry today, I have been this way since morning. Over myself. Maybe its just a case of accumulated self accountability. There are somethings I am responsible for, and quite frankly, I don’t think I have done a great job at those tasks.
Maybe I am fighting control, excessive control. Maybe I want to break free of a state of possible emotional backlash and have sealed my external emotions to do just that. Its only my insides that have rebelled against me now.
Haha techie. Don’t worry, the peace process is under way. Life’s not too bad, but I must say I have always seen you so under control that it seems impossible to imagine the weakling in you. Lol.
Hope U feel better soon. I know…a pretty shallow thing to say here…but don’t really know what else to say to make U feel better. This post is just tooo deep,…don’t have the words…just…don’t be this hard on yourself. Take care.
“Sometimes, you do painful things to others and to yourself, to get a point through. Others move on, but you are left contemplating the logic behind the action. It was no plan, just things went a bit in the way they were least expected to.”
..story of my life!
hope u get ur stuff sorted out….any luck with the gaddi?