I am lost today, lost in the light of the dark silence. Shaken to shreds, confusion that belittles any form reason. I don’t know why, but sometimes I feel its only because I am just that. Human. Like we all are, some strong, some weak. I feel weak, very weak today.

Sometimes, you do painful things to others and to yourself, to get a point through. Others move on, but you are left contemplating the logic behind the action. It was no plan, just things went a bit in the way they were least expected to.

I am angry today, I have been this way since morning. Over myself. Maybe its just a case of accumulated self accountability. There are somethings I am responsible for, and quite frankly, I don’t think I have done a great job at those tasks.

Maybe I am fighting control, excessive control. Maybe I want to break free of a state of possible emotional backlash and have sealed my external emotions to do just that. Its only my insides that have rebelled against me now.